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i_like_red ([personal profile] i_like_red) wrote2016-03-04 09:44 pm

Private to Galaxy-Eyes

Hey. Do you have a minute? I'd like to talk about something, if it's okay with you.
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[personal profile] grimgrimwar 2016-03-04 09:56 pm (UTC)(link)
You two just don't know when to leave well-enough alone, do you.

You have a tongue. Use it.
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[personal profile] grimgrimwar 2016-03-04 10:27 pm (UTC)(link)
You've at least grown smart enough to stop harassing her directly. If you had, you and I would be having a very different, much more physical conversation right now.

If you're thinking of plumbing her for information on the Astrals and Barians, don't bother. Neither of us have discovered anything worth sharing that you don't already know.
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[personal profile] grimgrimwar 2016-03-04 10:49 pm (UTC)(link)
...







I told you, before. The last time we spoke. That spending time with Yuma, and then Yuya, buoyed her spirits, but seeing you two again damaged them.

Why couldn't you both just heed my words.

She has enough weighing on her without being harassed and insulted by that imbecilic officer.
Edited 2016-03-04 22:50 (UTC)
grimgrimwar: Finally got her own tablet so she stops stealing Alexandra's. (Galaxy-Eyes)

[personal profile] grimgrimwar 2016-03-04 11:58 pm (UTC)(link)
...

...

...if you use any of what I'm about to tell you against her. If you or him use this information to hurt her. If you harass her or insult her or try to bully her into following your whims with it. If you take advantage of her, if you hurt her.

I won't talk to you. I won't duel you. I will destroy you.

I have lost near everything that I hold dear and that girl is the only thing I have left and the only reason I'm even considering going ahead with this and confiding in you right now is because I can't stand the idea of losing her too.

Do I make myself clear.
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[personal profile] grimgrimwar 2016-03-05 07:23 pm (UTC)(link)
...

...

Alexandra is wracked with pain, both physically and emotionally. Her body and mind are both covered in scars. She was drawn to me. To my fractured soul, because our souls resonated with each other. She didn't know about me, but her soul resonated with mine and that led her to find me in my pathetic state and take me in. I sheltered myself next to her soul and drew on her strength. I needed to to be able to recover. Her soul is incredibly strong. One of the strongest I've ever seen on a human. It nourished me from the brink of death. My proximity to it...connected us. She gained my memories. My instincts. My overwhelming drive to assault the Numbers, for what they did to me and so many others. She says she made the choice to attack people for them on her own -- she refuses to accept the notion that my instincts MADE her do anything, because she doesn't want herself or me or anybody else to blame me for what she did. But it is closer to the truth than she wants to admit.

...the flipside of that. Is when I slumbered next to her soul. I was able to see her memories. And her instincts as well.

She never forgave herself for what she did as an Emissary of the Underworld. What she did when she was possessed by those contemptible Dark Synchro cards. What she did at the Astronaut's behest. She's tried. She's tried so many times to move on. But she can't. The blood on her hands eats at her. I don't even need to be bonded with her to be able to see that. She moved an ocean away and stayed there because of it. Because she didn't want it to weigh on her anymore, because she didn't want to fight anymore. But she came back because she heard of Yuma's situation, of his expulsion duel, and knew that helping him was the right thing to do.

... ...I think at one point, some small part of her blamed Yuma and Yuya and Yuzu for her presence here. Perhaps that was why she assaulted them so fiercely. Why she took Yuya and Yuzu's life energy. I don't know. But I know she doesn't anymore. She cares about those two boys more than she cares about herself at this point.

...she wants to make up for what she did. She wants to make up for the blood on her hands. She wants to make up for the people she hurt because of my instincts. She wants justice for me and for the memory of my fallen allies. And she wants to do the right thing as well -- she wants to help Yuma and Yuya because they forgave her so easily, but because they're also strong, good-hearted boys who are themselves trying to do the right thing. She empathized with Labrys' story of her dying race and wanted to help her save it. She wanted to save Scythe, but she couldn't -- she had to kill him just to end his pain and it felt like she had taken a life that didn't deserve it all over again. She swore that she would change the Barian Race's fate, that she would save them, because she felt she had to to make up for killing Scythe and because it was the right thing to do.

Do you understand? She's taken an uncountable amount of burdens on to herself out of a mix of guilt and compulsion. It should be burning her out. It should be destroying her. But she draws strength from Yuma and Yuya and Susan and Icarus and, I would like to hope, a little bit from me as well, and it drives her forward.

And then she sees you. You and that officer. Cornering her after she put herself on the line to help Yuma fight the demons when you weren't even there. Demanding your answers. Forcing her into a duel you KNEW she would never turn down. Getting in her way when she tried to go to Heartland -- she wasn't trying to start a war. She was trying to SAVE people. We discussed it together, our plan was to use the time-dilation function of our Galaxy Matter Engine and get people out of harms way, but there you were again, getting in her way, threatening to use force to stop her from doing what her heart was telling her was the only moral thing to do. The only reason things didn't go far worse was because Yuya was able to reach out to her. After they faced Failnaught for one of the Legendary Numbers. She tried to recover one that was lost by that officer. Because she and I believe that if they are tampered with, it will lead to disaster, and because we had already lost one to Labrys and wanted to make up for it. We failed, but we still had to TRY. And for that, because by trying to do what we thought was right, we wounded that officer's pride and he had the nerve to attack and insult Alexandra for that. To accuse her of pitying herself, of fighting just for GLORY, as if he is any better himself, constantly moaning about how difficult his job is when the point of law enforcement and peacekeeping is taking on a difficult job, not for acknowledgement, not for reward, but so others WON'T HAVE TO, because of a sense of DUTY.

She's trying to do what her heart is telling her she has to. She's trying to make up for what she's done. She's trying to move on. But at every turn, she's met with reminders that she can't. Just seeing you. Just seeing you and your organization and your life brings her pain, because you've moved on and built things from when you were a Dark Signer, but she can't. If you want me to say it flatly, fine. She doesn't think you a contemptible wretch who sits on his laurels and watches others get hurt because he's too slothful to do anything about it. The fact that you have so much power but don't use it frustrates her, but I know on some level, she understands it, even if she doesn't realize it herself. She respects you and your strength a great deal, but you're also a walking reminder of everything she did and everything she feels she can't be.

So. Yes. For a brief moment when she fought Scythe, when she saw no way out, she accepted her death was inevitable. And she was relieved, because she thought it meant the pain would stop. But don't come to me and tell me you think she's going to throw her life away because of some half-read emotional impulse you have no context for. Her drive to live and fight is what allowed her to use Scythe's power to win that duel and it's what has carried her forward since. She won't let herself die because she doesn't think she even deserves that yet.

Enough?

Have I discussed enough for you yet, Yuuki Juudai?
grimgrimwar: Finally got her own tablet so she stops stealing Alexandra's. (Galaxy-Eyes)

[personal profile] grimgrimwar 2016-03-06 06:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Less than thought through is an understatement.

...

I want you to understand something, Yuuki Juudai.

I don't hate you. I believe you and I are more similar than you may realize. And you and Alexandra are more similar than she realizes. But you've made a series of choices that deeply confuse me as to what your priorities truly are.

If you really want to see her. I will speak to her about it. But if she doesn't want to see you again, I need you to accept her wishes for once. You need to start considering the possibility that if you truly are her friend, what's best for her may be for you to not be a part of her life.

Do you understand?
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[personal profile] grimgrimwar 2016-03-06 08:41 pm (UTC)(link)
I will speak to her. But if she refuses, I will not push her.

In exchange, I need you to do something for me.

I know the young hunter has given you information about Galaxy Queen and her son, Star Robin. I want that information.
grimgrimwar: Finally got her own tablet so she stops stealing Alexandra's. (Galaxy-Eyes)

[personal profile] grimgrimwar 2016-03-07 09:33 pm (UTC)(link)
...that's not...

....no. That's impossible.

Star Robin couldn't have just been killed by a Number like that with no trace -- his self-resurrection ability would have triggered, he would have come back, he...

...this doesn't make any sense.

I need the information on Number 77!
Edited 2016-03-07 21:33 (UTC)
grimgrimwar: Finally got her own tablet so she stops stealing Alexandra's. (Galaxy-Eyes)

[personal profile] grimgrimwar 2016-03-07 11:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Dammit!

Then I'll go squeeze the information out of Judgeman myself!
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[personal profile] grimgrimwar 2016-03-07 11:20 pm (UTC)(link)
I can get what I need first. I can get the information on Star Robin, the Astrals, the Barians, all of it, straight from his mouth and then kill him before he gives the order to use the bombs!
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[personal profile] grimgrimwar 2016-03-07 11:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Following protocol and bureaucracy is what got my allies killed! What destroyed my best friend, Galaxy Queen! What cost me my Cloudragons!

I won't let him hide behind a veil of lies and secrecy while the rest of us fight and scour and a world lays dying! I'll kill him and everyone else responsible for this, then I'll do the same to anybody else would target this planet because of it!

[personal profile] grimgrimwar 2016-03-07 11:47 pm (UTC)(link)
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[personal profile] grimgrimwar 2016-03-07 11:48 pm (UTC)(link)
Don't.

Just stop whatever you're typing. Don't bother saying it. I know. I'm not going anywhere.

I am. Very. Very frustrated. But I have not lost all of my sense yet.
grimgrimwar: Finally got her own tablet so she stops stealing Alexandra's. (Galaxy-Eyes)

[personal profile] grimgrimwar 2016-03-08 12:00 am (UTC)(link)
A promise worth as much as all of King Midas' gold, I'm sure.

...

I'll speak to Alexandra about seeing you soon.