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[i_like_red]

Sorry I avoided a lot of contact with people when we finally came back, I know a lot of you probably wanted to see me but... I was kinda tired... I still am tired... I've tried sleeping but at the best I've only slept for a few hours... my head's still buzzing with everything that's happened, can't get it out of my head.
Maybe later... I'll be up to seeing you all.
Asuka, if you can, come and visit later, I really want to see you.

I guess.... you all probably have a lot of questions. I don't think I'll be able to answer a lot of them... mostly out of choice and respect for some friends.
I don't think it's something most of you need to know anyway... all you need to know is that you were all given back a chance to live.

Do amazing things with your lives.

Be happy.

Be alive.



((Following is private. ))

...I don't want to go through something like that ever again...
...ever ever again...

I waited there a whole day...a whole day, I didn't sleep, I didn't eat...I just waited... while being surrounded by death the entire time. Though, I was glad Isabel was there... I don't think I could of gotten through it as well as I did if she wasn't there... she reminded me that there was still life, just by being there and waiting with me... I'm grateful for that.

I really thought I was going to die.

I spent a lot of time up there just thinking... about all the things that I wanted to do, all the things I wanted to experience that I never got the chance to... all the places I wanted to go...
...I kept thinking... how I wished I spent more time with friends, how I wanted to see them succeed in their lives, how I felt it was cruel they had that chance taken away from them.

Despite all that though... dueling Hikari...it was fun. I felt if I was going to die where I was then... that would of been the best way to go. So I dueled for the fun, I dueled in memory of my friends, in respect for each and every one of them.
I doubt I'll ever get a monsters attack to well over 10 billion again... I really hope I never get that chance again... considering how it got up that high...

Somehow... somehow...I was able to bring everyone back... I gave the people of this world another chance to live... and... that thought makes me happy...
...it's true... you can't actually "defeat" death... it's inevitable for all of us... but you can delay it.
It just wasn't the right time for everyone to die... I'm glad I gave the chance of life back to them all... I hope everyone does amazing things with their lives... amazing, wonderful things.

And no matter what happened... even though I can't get all the thoughts out of my head of the bad things that happened. I'm not angry at her... I can't be angry at her at all.
Just like everyone else... I gave her a chance to live, I hope she uses it to grow into an amazing person.

Haha, I think my emotions are shot... I cried while writing this. I feel so many different feelings right now... some sad... some happy... just... all at the same time.

Comments

[magician-ayumi.livejournal.com]

I'm just glad you, Johan, and the others are alright now, Juudai-nii!

[i-like-red.livejournal.com]

I'm glad too.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

It's... Expected that you'd still be tired, Juudai. I don't know what exactly happened with... All of this, but...

Something tells me you deserve to rest quite a bit.

At the least, you'll have the next week to, right?

[i-like-red.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I'm glad I have the time to rest and have a break...
....I think we all really deserve it.

[thefrozenstorm.livejournal.com]

...Hm. I take it you made what you were going to do count, then?

[i-like-red.livejournal.com]

I did.... I made it count more than I could of ever imagined!

[thefrozenstorm.livejournal.com]

...While I'm surprised what I said actually... Worked, in a way...

...I'm glad that it did, Juudai.

[tomorrowsetoile.livejournal.com]

...I'm coming over right now.

[i-like-red.livejournal.com]

I'll be waiting.

[sees-the-sea.livejournal.com]

So, even the hero gets tired, huh? Bit settling to know you can still get fatigued under all that.

Private

...Can I ask you a favor?

[i-like-red.livejournal.com]

Haha, even with the things I can do and have done...I'm still human.

[Private to Isabel]

Sure! What is it?

Private

[sees-the-sea.livejournal.com]

...Can you go see Hikari? She's...been really messed up lately. She seems to like you, so I thought...y'know, it might help.

Re: Private

[i-like-red.livejournal.com]

No problem. I'll go and see her!

Re: Private

[sees-the-sea.livejournal.com]

...thanks, Juudai.