i_like_red | Private to Galaxy-Eyes

You two just don't know when to leave well-enough alone, do you.

You have a tongue. Use it.

I don't wish for any hard feelings. I'm actually contacting you because I have concerns for Alex. I'm worried about her and wished to talk to her, but I figured approaching her directly might not be a good idea, thus I wanted to talk to you first.

Even if Alex hates me right now, I still consider her my friend. Nothing will change that.

You've at least grown smart enough to stop harassing her directly. If you had, you and I would be having a very different, much more physical conversation right now.

If you're thinking of plumbing her for information on the Astrals and Barians, don't bother. Neither of us have discovered anything worth sharing that you don't already know.

No. This isn't about anything like that.
I guess this is more of a personal thing.

Something came to light to myself and Onni a bit ago when Onni was looking into the psychic that was possessed a while back. He had another friend of ours, Isabel, who is also psychic to check the area out. She was able to pick up on emotional markers in the area and since she is slightly familiar with Alex she was able to pinpoint the markers as belonging to her.
This isn't about her being involved with what went on there though, this is more about what the emotional markers were.
Isabel told me that the markers she picked up on, indicated a lot of pain and sadness and the feeling of just wanting it to stop, not matter what.
This has me deeply concerned for Alex's well-being.

You're very close to her, right? Have you sensed this in her at all?

...

I told you, before. The last time we spoke. That spending time with Yuma, and then Yuya, buoyed her spirits, but seeing you two again damaged them.

Why couldn't you both just heed my words.

She has enough weighing on her without being harassed and insulted by that imbecilic officer.

Edited 2016-03-04 22:50 (UTC)

Onni knows he has issues with his temper regarding Alex. It is eating at him that it happens, which is quite possibly both the result of his own short-temper but also the stress he's under himself at the moment. He wishes to have the chance to reconcile with Alex one day, but for now I've told him that he should leave any communication between us and Alex souly to me until he's able to work through these issues of his own as he knows that letting his temper blow up on her would not be helping her right now.

That said, he has done something to hopefully make things a little easier on Alex. He has made it so she is no longer listed on the Twelve Peers list of people they should look out for. She is no longer being pursued.

Like I said. I'm worried about her. She's my friend and she will always be my friend, no matter how much she's angry at me. I know the friendship won't be without it's holes from this, but I just want to make sure that she's okay.
Just because we don't see eye to eye right now, doesn't mean I don't worry about her.

If you personally think her well-being would be better right now for her not to speak to me, then that's fine, I'll heed that wish and I will do any communications through you to avoid speaking to her.
But I just want to let her know that I'm worried, that I don't wish to harbour any hard feelings towards her or you and that if there's anything I CAN do to help her, then I'd be happy to discuss things.

...

...

...if you use any of what I'm about to tell you against her. If you or him use this information to hurt her. If you harass her or insult her or try to bully her into following your whims with it. If you take advantage of her, if you hurt her.

I won't talk to you. I won't duel you. I will destroy you.

I have lost near everything that I hold dear and that girl is the only thing I have left and the only reason I'm even considering going ahead with this and confiding in you right now is because I can't stand the idea of losing her too.

Do I make myself clear.

Very clear.

None of that is my wish at all. I understand that she's incredibly important to you.

...

...

Alexandra is wracked with pain, both physically and emotionally. Her body and mind are both covered in scars. She was drawn to me. To my fractured soul, because our souls resonated with each other. She didn't know about me, but her soul resonated with mine and that led her to find me in my pathetic state and take me in. I sheltered myself next to her soul and drew on her strength. I needed to to be able to recover. Her soul is incredibly strong. One of the strongest I've ever seen on a human. It nourished me from the brink of death. My proximity to it...connected us. She gained my memories. My instincts. My overwhelming drive to assault the Numbers, for what they did to me and so many others. She says she made the choice to attack people for them on her own -- she refuses to accept the notion that my instincts MADE her do anything, because she doesn't want herself or me or anybody else to blame me for what she did. But it is closer to the truth than she wants to admit.

...the flipside of that. Is when I slumbered next to her soul. I was able to see her memories. And her instincts as well.

She never forgave herself for what she did as an Emissary of the Underworld. What she did when she was possessed by those contemptible Dark Synchro cards. What she did at the Astronaut's behest. She's tried. She's tried so many times to move on. But she can't. The blood on her hands eats at her. I don't even need to be bonded with her to be able to see that. She moved an ocean away and stayed there because of it. Because she didn't want it to weigh on her anymore, because she didn't want to fight anymore. But she came back because she heard of Yuma's situation, of his expulsion duel, and knew that helping him was the right thing to do.

... ...I think at one point, some small part of her blamed Yuma and Yuya and Yuzu for her presence here. Perhaps that was why she assaulted them so fiercely. Why she took Yuya and Yuzu's life energy. I don't know. But I know she doesn't anymore. She cares about those two boys more than she cares about herself at this point.

...she wants to make up for what she did. She wants to make up for the blood on her hands. She wants to make up for the people she hurt because of my instincts. She wants justice for me and for the memory of my fallen allies. And she wants to do the right thing as well -- she wants to help Yuma and Yuya because they forgave her so easily, but because they're also strong, good-hearted boys who are themselves trying to do the right thing. She empathized with Labrys' story of her dying race and wanted to help her save it. She wanted to save Scythe, but she couldn't -- she had to kill him just to end his pain and it felt like she had taken a life that didn't deserve it all over again. She swore that she would change the Barian Race's fate, that she would save them, because she felt she had to to make up for killing Scythe and because it was the right thing to do.

Do you understand? She's taken an uncountable amount of burdens on to herself out of a mix of guilt and compulsion. It should be burning her out. It should be destroying her. But she draws strength from Yuma and Yuya and Susan and Icarus and, I would like to hope, a little bit from me as well, and it drives her forward.

And then she sees you. You and that officer. Cornering her after she put herself on the line to help Yuma fight the demons when you weren't even there. Demanding your answers. Forcing her into a duel you KNEW she would never turn down. Getting in her way when she tried to go to Heartland -- she wasn't trying to start a war. She was trying to SAVE people. We discussed it together, our plan was to use the time-dilation function of our Galaxy Matter Engine and get people out of harms way, but there you were again, getting in her way, threatening to use force to stop her from doing what her heart was telling her was the only moral thing to do. The only reason things didn't go far worse was because Yuya was able to reach out to her. After they faced Failnaught for one of the Legendary Numbers. She tried to recover one that was lost by that officer. Because she and I believe that if they are tampered with, it will lead to disaster, and because we had already lost one to Labrys and wanted to make up for it. We failed, but we still had to TRY. And for that, because by trying to do what we thought was right, we wounded that officer's pride and he had the nerve to attack and insult Alexandra for that. To accuse her of pitying herself, of fighting just for GLORY, as if he is any better himself, constantly moaning about how difficult his job is when the point of law enforcement and peacekeeping is taking on a difficult job, not for acknowledgement, not for reward, but so others WON'T HAVE TO, because of a sense of DUTY.

She's trying to do what her heart is telling her she has to. She's trying to make up for what she's done. She's trying to move on. But at every turn, she's met with reminders that she can't. Just seeing you. Just seeing you and your organization and your life brings her pain, because you've moved on and built things from when you were a Dark Signer, but she can't. If you want me to say it flatly, fine. She doesn't think you a contemptible wretch who sits on his laurels and watches others get hurt because he's too slothful to do anything about it. The fact that you have so much power but don't use it frustrates her, but I know on some level, she understands it, even if she doesn't realize it herself. She respects you and your strength a great deal, but you're also a walking reminder of everything she did and everything she feels she can't be.

So. Yes. For a brief moment when she fought Scythe, when she saw no way out, she accepted her death was inevitable. And she was relieved, because she thought it meant the pain would stop. But don't come to me and tell me you think she's going to throw her life away because of some half-read emotional impulse you have no context for. Her drive to live and fight is what allowed her to use Scythe's power to win that duel and it's what has carried her forward since. She won't let herself die because she doesn't think she even deserves that yet.

Enough?

Have I discussed enough for you yet, Yuuki Juudai?

Thank you. For entrusting me with all of that.

... I knew that everything she'd been through would be difficult to move on from, but I didn't realize that she was still suffering as bad as that from what happened in the past. When she moved to the US she seemed to be moving on herself. I was proud of her. She'd been through so much, she'd struggled so much, and she seemed to be doing well when she moved there.

I'm sorry that she's been through so much since she's been here and I'm sorry that Onni and myself's approach to things were less than thought through. There's been a lot of emotions flying around on both sides.
I didn't realize that it hurt her to see me because she felt that she can't move on like she feels I have.

I still care about her and I still want to help her. She and I have been friends for a long time and it's not a friendship I want to give up on. I stopped her going to Heartland because I was worried and because Yuma didn't want her to go either. He'd just lost his home, his friends and almost lost his family. He didn't want to lose her too. I didn't believe she was going to cause trouble, I just didn't want her to get hurt.
Even the most well thought out plans have the chance of going wrong and even now, we don't know exactly what any of us would of been up against if we'd gone there.

When I was told about the emotional marker that Isabel sensed, I feared the worst for her well-being. If you feel I was wrong to reach out like this, then that's fine, but I didn't want to do nothing.
I didn't want to leave her to suffer.

Less than thought through is an understatement.

...

I want you to understand something, Yuuki Juudai.

I don't hate you. I believe you and I are more similar than you may realize. And you and Alexandra are more similar than she realizes. But you've made a series of choices that deeply confuse me as to what your priorities truly are.

If you really want to see her. I will speak to her about it. But if she doesn't want to see you again, I need you to accept her wishes for once. You need to start considering the possibility that if you truly are her friend, what's best for her may be for you to not be a part of her life.

Do you understand?

I would like to see her. I want to speak to her, discuss things with her and I want to let her know directly that I'm here to help her if she needs it.
I understand that current events may of dragged up a lot of bad memories that are weighing on her, but I want to do what I can to help her face them and move on through them. I don't want her to see me as a past she has to run from.

If she truly doesn't want me to be a part of her life, then fine, I understand, though I can't promise our paths won't cross while she's here.
But I want her to think on whether that's what she truly wants or not.

Please ask her to get in contact with me, if she decides she would like to meet up somewhere to talk.

I will speak to her. But if she refuses, I will not push her.

In exchange, I need you to do something for me.

I know the young hunter has given you information about Galaxy Queen and her son, Star Robin. I want that information.

Very well. I'll copy and paste everything he wrote about them here for you.

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He stated to us that there are gaps in the information, but this is what he dug up.

Different Dimension Esper Star Robin:
• A member of the original and first Number Hunter squad.
• He is the biological son of Prison Dimension Inmate #83, designated "Galaxy Queen".
• He was trained by Prison Dimension Inmate #62, designated "Galaxy-Eyes Prime Photon Dragon".
• He was a Combat specialist, designated level 10 proficiency in close quarters combat.
• Defensive specialist as well. Combines in-born defensive traits with agile fighting technique to intercept all offensive efforts mounted on incoming allies.
• Regarded, despite young age, as one of the most proficient hunters in the first Number Hunter squad. Post-mortem analysis of the squad designates Star Robin as "possessed of unique courage, strength, technique and tenacity. In overall combat proficiency, second to none, save Prime herself. And the gap between them was becoming smaller, each day."
• Dispatched along with small Number Hunter squad to contain Prison Dimension Inmate #77, designated "The Seven Deadly Sins".
• Repeated correspondence from Inmate #62 and Inmate #83 indicates Inmates #62 and #83 strongly urged against such a small squad to contain #77. Inmate #62 further repeatedly requested that the mission to contain #77 be put on hold until it was finished with a simultaneous mission to detain and capture Prison Dimension Inmate #81, designated "Superior Dora". Inmate #62's requests were denied and the mission was carried out as scheduled.
• Mission to capture Inmate #77 was carried out successfully.
• However, the Number Hunter squad forces assigned to the case, with the exception of Star Robin, were all found KIA.
• Star Robin was presumed KIA, but there was no body was found.
• #77 was successfully captured with little resistance shortly after.

Number 83: Galaxy Queen:
• A member of the first Number Hunter squad, second in command to Inmate #62, designated "Galaxy-Eyes Prime Photon Dragon".
• Mother of squad member Different Dimension Esper Star Robin.
• Designated Rank 1 proficiency in all forms of combat.
• Defensive and support specialist, capable of temporarily greatly enhancing an ally's stamina, endurance and offensive acumen with magic.
• Placed on bereavement leave after the death of Different Dimension Esper Star Robin during mission to capture Inmate #77.
• From unspecified point several weeks after being placed on bereavement leave, began luring children from various points across 12 Dimensions, mostly war-torn nations and areas most affected by Prison Dimension Inmates for unknown purposes, including Galaxy-Eyes Cloudragons raised by Inmate #62.
• All missing children connected to Galaxy Queen were never found and are presumed dead.
• Inmate #62, acting as head of first Number Hunter squad, assaulted Galaxy Queen and attempted to apply lethal force. After Inmate #62 was separated and Inmate #83 was taken into custody, #62 went rogue and began hunting various Prison Dimension Inmates with extreme prejudice and zero regard for collateral damage.

Number 77: "The Seven Deadly Sins"
• Its entire file is redacted except for one piece of information:
• It's a Rank 12

...that's not...

....no. That's impossible.

Star Robin couldn't have just been killed by a Number like that with no trace -- his self-resurrection ability would have triggered, he would have come back, he...

...this doesn't make any sense.

I need the information on Number 77!

Edited 2016-03-07 21:33 (UTC)

Sadly that's all the information he could get on it.

Dammit!

Then I'll go squeeze the information out of Judgeman myself!

I know you want answers but I don't think that would be wise. He'd have you arrested the moment you're anywhere near him.

Right now, Onni and I are trying to piece things together and try to find out ways to prove Judgeman's corruption. Even Kaito himself admits that there are signs of corruption, but what we need is hard evidence.
If we manage that and get it proven, it's possible that we could get these files unlocked.

Also, we have the threat of Ice-9 Bombs over us at the moment and it wouldn't be smart to do anything to make him use them on us.

I can get what I need first. I can get the information on Star Robin, the Astrals, the Barians, all of it, straight from his mouth and then kill him before he gives the order to use the bombs!

You'd be endangering this entire planet if you did that!
Alex, Yuma, Yuya, everyone!

Every move made between us and the rest of the 12 Dimensions is delicate. Both SAI and SpecInv have to keep relations between us and the other dimensions as good as can be in order to have a balance and not cause any unnecessary retaliation. A move like that made on Judgeman would be seen as hostile and could put Earth into a LOT of trouble. It's why we're trying to find evidence of Judgeman's corruption, so we can take him down as legally and non-hostile as possible.

Following protocol and bureaucracy is what got my allies killed! What destroyed my best friend, Galaxy Queen! What cost me my Cloudragons!

I won't let him hide behind a veil of lies and secrecy while the rest of us fight and scour and a world lays dying! I'll kill him and everyone else responsible for this, then I'll do the same to anybody else would target this planet because of it!

[...]

Don't.

Just stop whatever you're typing. Don't bother saying it. I know. I'm not going anywhere.

I am. Very. Very frustrated. But I have not lost all of my sense yet.

Thank you.

I promise, IF we happen to come across any additional info for Number 77, I will let you know.

A promise worth as much as all of King Midas' gold, I'm sure.

...

I'll speak to Alexandra about seeing you soon.

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