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[i_like_red]

...great.



((Following is Private))

There really is no hope for a normal life for me, is there?
I'm graduating soon, I'm planning to go into the Pro League and I'm lucky enough to already have a manager who I look up to and can trust, I'm thinking of going to the Duel College in Domino, I have a beautiful girlfriend who I want to spend the rest of life with.
I have all these plans and more, but then I wonder if it's even worth it in the end... if I end up going crazy at anytime without realizing it... end up hurting or killing those close to me...
...I don't want to ever put them through that... I don't... I can't... each and every one of them, they're so important to me.
But the only way to do that is to push them away. They don't want that... and neither do I. So either way I'd be hurting them.
Figures.


I feel like yelling and punching something, because I don't know what to do.

I hate feeling like this power is forever going to be a barrier in my life.

I hate the fact that I'm scared of myself.

Some days I wonder if I should be in some mental hospital like Yukio is, as I sure do feel like I'm going crazy sometimes.
Though if I wasn't crazy by then, Yukio's usage of big words and speech patterns I don't understand would certainly make sure I turned that way... heh.

...I need to get that card back somehow...

Comments

Re: Private to Souha

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

Oy, Juudai.

You know, you and the others that made up that list of suspicious people...

You all have scarily good intuition.

Re: Private to Souha

[i-like-red.livejournal.com]

Oh? You find something?

Re: Private to Souha

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

Basically.

I watched him for a bit. He questioned me as to why I was attempting to spy, and we got onto the subject of rumors, as people seem to, apparently, think of him as an alien.

During this, he was signing papers... But at one point, he sped up in his signing, so I couldn't see what he was doing. Before, it was papers about costs for plaster and stone, grades... But I managed to actually get his attention at one point, when he was apparently signing a paper on safety regulations, regarding a freeway.

That damn bastard Brron talked about building one, I believe. After all, what would this school do with one, if it's not that?

... As well, he gave me detention to the end of the school year basically, for just talking to him, so even if that wasn't suspicious, giving that much is.

Re: Private to Souha

[i-like-red.livejournal.com]

That sound suspicious enough for some action I think.

Re: Private to Souha

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

Yeah.

I told Shikou about it last night, as well. Given how he was one of those people who did make a list... I think that, as he's one of the most accessible at the moment, it would be good to tell him.

But what would one do, in a course of action about this?

Re: Private to Souha

[i-like-red.livejournal.com]

That's a good question... the only thing I can think of is corner him somewhere and challenge him about it.

Re: Private to Souha

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

Mn... But he has enough plausible deniablity, as well.

He isn't that good of a liar, though, at least. He said the freeway stuff was for Kaiba Corp, but... Well, for one thing, why would Kaiba Corp trust an Osiris Red teacher with such a thing, and not one of their own employees on the mainland?

Still... For some reason, it feels like any of us should be careful, about this.

Re: Private to Souha

[i-like-red.livejournal.com]

True, we just need to figure something out, they could use that card at anytime.

Re: Private to Souha

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

... Which is probably why I feel that we should be careful, about this. Mn...

Still, this is farther than yesterday. A good thing, yes?

Re: Private to Souha

[i-like-red.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it is, thanks again, Souha.

Maybe we should just keep an eye on him for now and see what else we can discover, then.

Re: Private to Souha

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

Yeah.

Chances are, he's gonna be taking care of the detentions... Frankly, given this information, I'm a bit hesitant about what he might decide to do.

But if I don't do anything odd myself, he really wouldn't have a reason to do anything himself, now would he?

Re: Private to Souha

[i-like-red.livejournal.com]

Okay! If I see him about I'll keep an eye on him too and we'll see what we get from this.

Re: Private to Souha

[keepersouha.livejournal.com]

Mn... Alright, Juudai.

Again, I'll tell you if he does anything odd.

Re: Private to Souha

[i-like-red.livejournal.com]

Thanks!