I...really don't know what I'm supposed to be saying or doing in this kind of situation...
GAAH! I don't even know what love feels like!! Asuka once told me it was a warm feeling, but last night all I could feel was this burning in my chest, especially when I saw her last journal entry, I thought I was having a heart attack or something O_o;
To think this hurts her so much...I hurt her so much, without even doing anything I've probably caused her more pain than 10 Shadow Games all together.
Last night we decided to talk and I took her to a place on the island I found a few weeks ago, it's like a clearing in the forest...but it felt so awkward X___x; Neither of us really knew how to talk about this and I don't think we were in the right moods to do so.
I tried smiling and laughing about the situation to lighten the mood but that wasn't the right move, she just got more upset and eventually she told me this probably was a bad idea after all and ran off into the forest. I followed and called after her but I completely lost her. I searched for her for an hour in case she just stopped somewhere but then I realized she probably went back to her dorm, so I went back to mine.
Shou and Hayato asked how it went when I got back but I just told them I didn't really want to talk about it right now, so they left me alone. I didn't really sleep well last night, I just felt so bad about everything...
I decided not to go to classes today, I'm really not sure if Asuka has or hasn't. Though today I just have this strong want to try and talk to her again, maybe this time I can actually do something right instead of upsetting her even more...I don't want her to feel this pain anymore...
I should call her over the PDA and suggest we try again tonight...
((Set up this scene so we can do some fluff over MSN tonight, Aura <333 Man that took a while to write XD;;))