An Apology ((Filtered from the Americans))

Where do I even start...

Last night, the last two weeks even, are such a blur, though bits are slowly coming back to me, though I sorta wish I didn't remember them. I've read over the posts I made while I was...Haou... I'm sorry for what I said to people, for what I did, I'm sorry I ended up like that, I shouldn't of listened to Uebel and her lies that helped turn me that way. I'm not as alone as she made me believe I was, last night was proof enough of that.
Shou, Kenzan, you're both still standing by me and standing up for me, despite what I said to you both, despite pushing you away. Thank you. I don't deserve you guys at all. I wouldn't of blamed you guys or any of you if you all hated me after this mess.

Johan, you're still asleep right now, but I'm glad you're finally safe. I'm sorry for what Uebel did to you, I'm really sorry.

The events last night...it seems I was in a duel with Uebel, I've been told I lost, to be honest I don't remember much of it at all. I remember waking up dressed in this really heavy black coloured armour How did I even move around in it?? and Uebel was...going crazy... the Americans attacked her or something, others got involved, others got hurt badly...I...can't get the images of that out of my head.
It's my fault that happened to them, Uebel is so fixed on me, she doesn't care about what gets in her way.

Uebel... I wish things could of been different. As a kid, you were my favourite card, I always knew you wanted to fight along with me and I wanted that too, but you hurt so many of my friends back then, none of them wanted to duel me anymore, dueling them was pretty much the most important thing to me back then...
I thought the whole space thing would help, you'd become a better duel mosnter, I hoped if or when you came back, I'd be able to duel along side you again without fear of you hurting my friends, but now I realize it was a wrong choice and I feel I should apologize for how much pain it caused you.
I know all you want is to be with me and to protect me, but you've caused so much pain for me and the people I know trying to do that, much more pain than I have ever felt in the past.
I wish I could get you to understand this, I wish I could duel along side you again, but I know that's not going to happen now, you won't change, you refuse to change, you can't see what I do.

She'll come back like she promised, I'm not sure what I'll do when she does, but I can't take her hurting everyone anymore.

The Americans... not only do I have Uebel to worry about, I now have them. Aibou's acted strange around them before...I remember the guy...David is it? Pointing to me and shouting about Hane Kuriboh, about a "last piece". I don't know what it means but... if they want Aibou for anything, they'll have to take her by force and I don't plan to give up without a fight. I'd do everything in my power to protect her, she's an important partner to me and my friend.

Gah, I just feel so sore, tired and sick at the moment, I guess I should end this here and try and get some more sleep...