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Jan. 3rd, 2009 10:48 pmHuh. I got a weird text message earlier and by the looks of things, seems like a lot of people got it.
So the one I love, huh? Well, I have a lot of important people in my life that I love, close friends, people I see as family, but of course, the one I love in a romantic sense is Asuka.
Asuka changed me in a lot of ways. We spent three years being friends and I never noticed she was interested in me as more than just that, that's just how blind I was to this stuff back then. But when I had it pointed out to me it's like my world completely changed. It got confusing at first, because I didn't know what to say or do, I was scared I was gonna lose Asuka completely. In the end, I decided to give a relationship with her a try and I think it was probably one of the best decisions I've ever made.
After that it was like she opened my eyes to this whole new world and it was like I became... well not a completely different person, but I guess in some ways it helped me grow up a lot and the more we were together, the more I enjoyed the idea of it, though it wasn't until an incident only a few weeks after we started dating that made me realize just how much I loved her and just how lucky I was to have her in the first place. It honestly felt like it was killing me, being apart from her like that... having her hate me like that...
Ah, but I try not to think about that time too much.
We've been together a whole year now and I live with her in our own place.
Asuka is kinda like a light that shines in my life. I always feel happy and content around her. When I've had a bad day or things are going bad, I go home and she'll be there to give me a hug. I appreciate that more than she probably knows. I know things can get difficult at times, especially with what I do and I know I worry her a lot but... I think the best thing about us is that we can work through it together and we look out for each other.
I dunno, it's all really hard to describe in writing, it's like there's a ton of things I want to say but I can't really find the right words for it. All I know is that she's an amazing, beautiful person and I'm really grateful that I share my life with her, really truly grateful and if I end up spending the rest of my life with her then... well... I wouldn't mind that at all.
Ah, that kinda got sappy and stuff.
So the one I love, huh? Well, I have a lot of important people in my life that I love, close friends, people I see as family, but of course, the one I love in a romantic sense is Asuka.
Asuka changed me in a lot of ways. We spent three years being friends and I never noticed she was interested in me as more than just that, that's just how blind I was to this stuff back then. But when I had it pointed out to me it's like my world completely changed. It got confusing at first, because I didn't know what to say or do, I was scared I was gonna lose Asuka completely. In the end, I decided to give a relationship with her a try and I think it was probably one of the best decisions I've ever made.
After that it was like she opened my eyes to this whole new world and it was like I became... well not a completely different person, but I guess in some ways it helped me grow up a lot and the more we were together, the more I enjoyed the idea of it, though it wasn't until an incident only a few weeks after we started dating that made me realize just how much I loved her and just how lucky I was to have her in the first place. It honestly felt like it was killing me, being apart from her like that... having her hate me like that...
Ah, but I try not to think about that time too much.
We've been together a whole year now and I live with her in our own place.
Asuka is kinda like a light that shines in my life. I always feel happy and content around her. When I've had a bad day or things are going bad, I go home and she'll be there to give me a hug. I appreciate that more than she probably knows. I know things can get difficult at times, especially with what I do and I know I worry her a lot but... I think the best thing about us is that we can work through it together and we look out for each other.
I dunno, it's all really hard to describe in writing, it's like there's a ton of things I want to say but I can't really find the right words for it. All I know is that she's an amazing, beautiful person and I'm really grateful that I share my life with her, really truly grateful and if I end up spending the rest of my life with her then... well... I wouldn't mind that at all.
Ah, that kinda got sappy and stuff.
